Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Daffodils

I went outside and picked some daffodils today.

This may not seem like much but 3 days after stopping the Abilify I am beginning to feel a spark of life inside me. The daffodils are a symbol of that life.  And I brought them into my house and put them in a pretty vase and felt a wave of something like joy mixed with satisfaction that was absent for some time.  I set them on the living room table and just stared at their cheerful yellow faces and told myself that I was going to be okay.



It has been a long winter and the signs of spring are finally showing themselves and I am feeling optimistic today that the gloom and gray of winter is moving out and allowing the delight and sunshine to move into its place.  I am also optimistic that I am going to survive this most recent detour into misery and that I will also begin to see some new buds of hope unfolding within me.  Something has got to give, right?

Did I mention that I haven't moved out yet?  That is happening at the end of this month.  

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  22. Hiya .. im not sure if u r still checking this blog, but i wanted to know how comes you can't have this same energy during winter? u sure are capable :D xx reply back soon

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  23. You write really well. I know that doesn't mean jack shit when you're depressed, but I believe in planting seeds :) Thanks for putting words to this madness.

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  24. I don't know if you check this blog any more, but I wanted to thank you. So many of your blog posts are almost word for word thoughts I've had many times. I find comfort that I'm not alone it my feelings. I wish there was more of this! I hope you are doing well, I really do.

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